From the heart of a weary traveler

Seek and ye Shall find.
Knock and the door will be opened to you.

If you ask the Lord for anything, take the time to Listen...or you may find it the hard way. The Lord has blessed my life abundantly, as he has promised in his Word. However, I had failed on my end of the deal to continue to seek his face as we are all instructed to do.

By faith, God will lead us to show the World His glory; by sight we lead ourselves to a road of disappointment. By faith, we trust in the Lords guidance throughout all of life's endeavors; by sight we take the bull by the horns and plow our own path to destruction. By faith, we thank the Lord for all that he has blessed our lives with; by sight we take the blessings and run, and run, and run, and run, and eventually grow tired. The Lord tells us that we will soar on wings like Eagles, run and not grow weiry, walk and not be faint; Our selfish pride tells us to call upon the Lord when we can't do it any more, until then do it on your own.

Right now I feel like the workers in Babelon, trying to build myself a tower all the way to Heaven. I'd spent a good time workin on this tower, acctually I hadn't done much work, but i've studied and planned a whole lot about how I'm going to build this tower. Now the good Lord has scrambled my language and trashed my plans. He's told me that the only way to Heaven is to "build your life on the Lord Jesus Christ" like the good Sunday School song teaches us.

God doesn't like fakes. He doesn't like people who call on his name, but don't trust him completely. God doesn't like people who take ownership for His incredible works. Jesus didn't have much favor for the Pharisee, but he loved them anyhow. It'd be good for me to learn the lessons of the Pharisee's taught by Jesus and Paul; I tend to be like them in so many ways. In fact most the people I know tend to be like them in so many ways. Its a shame I don't take the things Paul and Jesus said more to heart.

"more to heart"

Coming more to the heart of things, the Lord has spoken and Sara and I will be post-poning our plans for the mission field until further notice. In fact I don't even know what being called to the mission field means anymore!!! We've all be called to Jesus Christ. What more is there? Where we fulfill that calling could be anywhere in the world! But its the most important calling any human could recieve.

I'm just now learning that through our pursuit of the Jesus by the power of the Holy Spirit, all things will come to the Glory of the One who sent even him, Jesus that is. We need not work all our lives to attain a result expected of great plans and preparation. We only need to know the Lord that we may attain a result greater than our expectation from a God more magnificent of our own minds.

Paul was a fool for Christ. I want to be a fool for Christ. All that I have and all that I am is only worth as much as my oneness with my Savior. My Savior is not found in my Job, my education, or my mission. My wife is not my savior, my church is not my savior, my social status is not my savior. My car is not my savior, my talents and skills are not my savior. I can not save myself, for I did not even create myself. My mother and father, whom I came from, can not save me either. For their bodies will pass as well.

My Savior is Jesus Christ, the King. None of those things I listed above can compare to a King like my Jesus. He lives in my heart, which has been sanctified by his innocent blood which that shed on a cross for all the world. Sounds crazy right? well I think Paul was pretty crazy, so I'm ok with that. In fact Jesus was even a little crazy, so I'm def. ok with that.

I'm tired of the talk, I'm tired of the advances in my own human wisdom. I dream to feel, I feel to love, I love so that I can experience the surpassing greatness of my Lord, the King of all the world. He's given me a wife and He has called us one. I've never seen two become one before. Is it really just supposed to be metaphorical? I hope to find out.